Cranky

Sometimes I get cranky
I can’t help it, really
I do things on my own,
Like an odd and lonely soul

I’m told I’m too quirky
But that’s the only way for me
I often don’t realise
That’s not the regular path

I’d love to be normal to do nothing special
I’d love to be banal
To go about my life in an orderly fashion
And to stop asking questions

But I’m trapped in myself 
I am done with pretense
I’ve never been good at being someone else

I am stuck with this brain
With these thoughts, with those games
The melancholy and the insecurities

And here you are, and I’m all sorted
You’re there and everything seems simple again
And here you are and I’m just fine
For as long as you’ll give me your time

Sometimes I get cranky
I let things get to me
I’m oversensitive
I’ve got nothing good to give

It’s all too much for me
And I do get angry
The wars, the extreme right
Don’t wanna live in a state of fright

I’d love to be useful to do something meaningful
I want to be crucial
To go about my life in a decisive manner
And to get much better at banter

But I’m trapped in myself 
I am done with pretense
I’ve never been good at being someone else

I am stuck with this brain
With these thoughts, with those games
The melancholy and the insecurities

And here you are, and I’m all sorted
You’re there and everything seems simple again
And here you are and I’m just fine
For as long as you’ll give me your time

but…
Sometimes you get cranky
And you leave suddenly
Leaving me alone to fight
The challenges of life

I struggle and frankly
It is far from easy
To know you are around
And won’t lend me your hand

I know you’re struggling too you’ve got other things to do
Than constantly save me
You’ve got your own issues I wish I could help you
Be truly happy

But I’m trapped in myself 
I am done with pretense
I’ve never been good at being someone else

I am stuck with this brain
With these thoughts, with those games
The melancholy and the insecurities

Still here I am with all these flaws
I’m here for you and everything seems simple again
And here I am and you’re just fine
For as long as I’ll give you my time

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4 Comments

  • wannareadmymind

    16th April 2017

    Hey there… Love the piece! Please don’t go “normal,” it is just not as much fun! I hope all is well and hope to hear from you sometime. Take care!

    Reply
    • PPF

      16th April 2017

      Thanks! Couldn’t even if I wanted to… 🙂
      Talk soon!

      Reply
      • wannareadmymind

        16th April 2017

        When time permits, we try chatting again via twitter. Right now, I am swamped with exams. All my best!

        Reply
        • PPF

          16th April 2017

          Cool just drop me a line when you have time

          Reply

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